Everyone is constantly telling me I need to upgrade.
I am told to upgrade my cell phone, upgrade my cable, upgrade my TV to 3D, upgrade my car to more fuel efficient, and upgrade my style.
This year I am upgrading myself.
I am going to upgrade my insides and my outs.
In NO particular order I am going to be able to call myself the following this year...
Skinny
No not model skinny but me skinny. I want to be able to wear skinny jeans and be happy. I want to wear a cute dress without spanx under it. I want to feel good about my weight. I am not sure what that number is yet I just know how I want to feel and I want to feel skinny.
Healthy
I will force myself love to eat at least one whole serving of a vegetable a day. Yes, I am starting with one because there are too many days I eat none. The only meal I even cook veggies for is dinner. (slim fast for breakfast and lunch) When dinner comes around I want carbs and meat. I always cook a veggie but usually a potato of sorts or corn, peas or green beans. I want to love peppers and brussel sprouts and asparagus and broccoli. So this year I will force myself to eat my veggies first instead of leaving them on the plate. Eventually I will learn to love them. Now I know that just eating one vegetable a day will not make me healthy, but it is a start.
Faithful
I want to crave Jesus like I crave chocolate.
I want to ache for him. I want to think about him morning, noon and night. I want to lay in bed and dream about him. I want to devour him! Like chocolate Jesus goes with everything and makes everything better. So why do I ever go without? Why don't I put him on everything?
I read People magazine and check celebrity websites daily. For some reason I want to know what Jennifer Aniston is wearing, what Jessica Simpson is eating or what Brad Pitt is doing. Why don't I feel the same way about God? I have believed in God as long as I can remember. I have never had a period where I questioned my faith or where I would end up after this life ends. Yet, I have never felt that I have a close personal relationship with Christ. And sadly I have never really desired one. I have been content hearing about him from my pastor or praying to him at meal times, bed times or times of trouble. But I want to want to know him. I want to desire to learn more about him. I want a better relationship with Jesus. And not just for me...but for my daughters too. I want to set an example. I want to pick up my bible while lounging by the pool instead of a trashy magazine.
I read People magazine and check celebrity websites daily. For some reason I want to know what Jennifer Aniston is wearing, what Jessica Simpson is eating or what Brad Pitt is doing. Why don't I feel the same way about God? I have believed in God as long as I can remember. I have never had a period where I questioned my faith or where I would end up after this life ends. Yet, I have never felt that I have a close personal relationship with Christ. And sadly I have never really desired one. I have been content hearing about him from my pastor or praying to him at meal times, bed times or times of trouble. But I want to want to know him. I want to desire to learn more about him. I want a better relationship with Jesus. And not just for me...but for my daughters too. I want to set an example. I want to pick up my bible while lounging by the pool instead of a trashy magazine.
Outgoing
I want to be one of those people that when strangers meet them and walk away they think "wow she is really nice." But too often I don't give strangers a chance. I judge others too quickly. I have a wonderful group of friends and somehow think I do not need anymore. Like my friend jar is full. Why do I think like that? I need to get a bigger jar! I want room for more friends.
Instead of being nervous because I have not seen them in ages or cannot remember their kids' names or won't know what to say I will walk up and just say hello. I will send thoughtful notes via email, snail mail, text and facebook. I want lots of jars FULL of friends!
Instead of being nervous because I have not seen them in ages or cannot remember their kids' names or won't know what to say I will walk up and just say hello. I will send thoughtful notes via email, snail mail, text and facebook. I want lots of jars FULL of friends!
Quiet
I know this sounds totally contradictory to the previous post. But I want to learn to be quiet and just listen. I want to be able to have a conversation with someone without interrupting to give them advice or give them my expert opinion or finish their sentence. I want to learn how to show others I care and I am listening without saying a word. Is that possible?
Wrong
Okay, I know that may be weird but I want to be able to say "I am wrong"...and not because I am being forced to. I want to feel okay with being wrong. I know it will make me a better mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend etc. I am bullheaded and stubborn and bully people into believing whatever I am saying. (some people more easily than others) I HATE that about myself. I want to sit back and be wrong and be okay with it. I want to be able to learn things from other people when I am wrong about something instead of constantly defending my mistakes. This may be my greatest challenge this year.
A Homeowner
Enough said!
Looking forward to another amazing year.
A Homeowner
Enough said!
Looking forward to another amazing year.
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